Reflections on the Suicides of Chinese International Students<\/p>\n
Recently stories about two Chinese international students committing suicide circulated on Chinese We-Chat. Both students were regarded as excellent students in the eyes of their parents and the others: \u00a0they were outgoing, active in the community and academically driven. \u00a0So what led to this tragedy? \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Who should take the responsibility? What are the causes? \u00a0And what can we learn from those tragic?<\/p>\n
Such questions linger in the minds of parents, friends, teachers and many others- we want answers. Some people may blame the family\u2019s lack of parenting education, some may blame society\u2019s ideology around success and some may blame the victim for not being tough enough.<\/p>\n
TWO CASES <\/strong><\/p>\n Case one: YuanYuan from Nangjing China, committed suicide in Feb 2009. She was a second year economics student at Amsterdam University. The three notes she left behind disclosed: \u00a0\u201cI am so, so tired. For the last eight years I have been trying to calm down the upheaval of inner turmoil; when it hits me I felt so helpless. Sometimes I have to endure and wait for the turmoil to fade and recover slowly. \u00a0Life is so busy; I simply do not have time to deal with it anymore. I cannot sense any joy in life, and life itself has become unbearable. \u00a0I am really tired of this.\u201d \u00a0\u00a0She also disclosed that she had battled with OCD for the last eight years.<\/p>\n This case was brought to the limelight by Yuan Yuan\u2019s mother. In her mother\u2019s eyes, her daughter was very considerate, independent, warm hearted, decisive and academically driven- a person who had always presented herself as positive and cheerful. The death of her daughter devastated the mother, what had gone wrong? \u00a0As a teacher herself she asked what can be done to prevent this kind of thing from happening again.<\/p>\n Case two: Guo Yanjun, 28, \u00a0\u00a0immigrated to America in 2001, graduated with an Honors BSc in 2006, worked in investment banking in New York, then registered at MIT (\u9ebb\u7701\u7406\u5de5\u5b66\u9662),majoring in management – a journey much admired by many Chinese students. During her school years at MIT, Yanjun was active in various school clubs: \u00a0\u2018The Future International Leadership Club\u2019, \u2018Principle Asian Advisory Council Committee\u2019 and the school\u2019s band\u2019. From other\u2019s perspective, YanJun was a student who was outgoing, hard working, took the initiative, positive, and excellence driven. \u00a0After she passed away, it was learned that on her facebook page, she had expressed that she is a coward, a deserter, and she cannot hold on to it anymore \u2026<\/p>\n Reading their stories reminded me of Brene Brown\u2019s theory: \u00a0Shame and the Power of Vulnerability. \u00a0The feeling of shame is one of the main causes of low self esteem, and often leads to depression.<\/p>\n THE INNER VOICE <\/strong><\/p>\n Brene Brown\u2019s Ted Talk on \u2018The Power of Vulnerability\u2019 challenged many people\u2019s perceptions of vulnerability. \u00a0For decades, people, regardless of their background or their culture, the West or the East, tend to avoid disclosing any feelings associated vulnerability. \u00a0Normally, these feelings are packed up, put aside or stuffed up and people pretend that these feelings are under control.<\/p>\n However, Brene\u2019s revolutionary discovery was that the birthplace of shame, fear, loneliness and that of joy, creativity, authenticity, courage are one in the same. When we shut down the feeling of vulnerability, we lose the capacity to be creative, courageous, congruent and content.<\/p>\n Brene Brown\u2019s ten years of research has shown that: \u00a0being vulnerable is absolutely essential to wholehearted living. \u00a0Brene\u2019s definition of vulnerability is: \u00a0It is an accurate measurement of courage, it is to be seen, to be exposed, and to be honest with whom we were at the moment.<\/p>\n Embracing the feeling of shame does not mean staying there; instead, to embrace it is like putting on galoshes and finding a way out of the swamp of negative emotions. We learn to move forward courageously without carrying the baggage. \u00a0Therefore, to be courageous requires being creative in cultivating our ability to embrace negative feelings, instead of stuffing them up and leaving them behind.<\/p>\n THE EMOTIONAL FREEDOM<\/strong><\/p>\n The idiom \u2018Lick your wound\u2019 means to withdraw temporarily while recovering from a defeat. Wound licking is an instinctive response in many animals. Saliva contains factors which promote the blood clotting mechanism, aiding in defense against infection. Embracing our vulnerability has the same function as licking our wounds.<\/p>\n Judith Orloff, a psychiatrist and assistant clinical professor the UCLA, advises that a negative emotion needs to be identified and transformed. Unfortunately, in the mainstream medical system, emotions are only partially understood and do not receive the total respect that they warrant.<\/p>\n Judith Orloff\u2019s book: \u00a0Liberate Yourself from Negative Emotions and Transform Your Life illustrates a revolutionary discovery in emotional health. To have a balanced mood is to transform a negative emotion, not to cast it out. \u00a0She proposed seven types of transformations: facing fear, building courage; \u00a0facing frustration and disappointment, building patience; facing loneliness, building connection; facing anxiety and worry , build inner calm; facing depression, building hope; facing jealousy and envy , building self \u2013 esteem; and the last, \u00a0facing anger, building compassion. \u00a0And each transformation is approached holistically: mood, biology, subtle energy, psychology and spirituality.<\/p>\n CONCLUSION<\/strong><\/p>\n Judith Orloff\u2019s transforming negative emotional states to positive ones resonates with Brene Brown\u2019s theory of the function of vulnerability: fear, shame, and loneliness and creativity, courage, and connection share the same birthplace. When we cast out the negative emotions, we lose our capacity for being authentic and being courageous. These negative emotions can be transformed, and become the sources of love, courage, creativity, calm and love.<\/p>\n International students, who are referred to as sojourners, are people who move to another country to achieve certain objectives. They exhibit a similar acculturation process just as immigrant\u2019s do- from honeymoon, to dark depression, to recovery, and to adaptation to the new environment. Some students may go through this process with ease, while others may encounter larger challenges because of various barriers, such as language, differences in weather, food, friend circles, school work or social etiquette. Some types of emotional distress such as loneliness, fear, and anxiety are typical of the transition to the second stage of the acculturation process. \u00a0In the past year I have also encountered some cases of international students who exhibited similar symptoms, these students are determined, self disciplined, academically driven, and take the initiative. \u00a0Yet, when their expectations are not fulfilled, they feel trapped and stressed out. The students become the victims of their inner voice: I am not good enough, feeling vulnerable, and incompetent.<\/p>\n Understanding our emotions and knowing how to manage them is relatively new to international students from China or other countries. \u00a0The term EI became widely known with the publication of Goleman\u2019s Emotional Intelligence \u2013 Why It Can Matter More Than IQ (1995). In the past 20 years, more and more researchers and counselors have studied the function of emotional elements. Therefore, more information and knowledge has become available for learning how to deal with our emotional needs instead of shying away from this topic. \u00a0\u00a0Brene Brown and Judith Orloff\u2019s studies on emotional health are two examples.<\/p>\n There is an unspoken rule in traditional Chinese culture to not disclose negative events to an outsider; events such as critical illness, death, job loss, accidents, and so on. The reason behind this is that negative events are regarded as bad Karma. A considerate person would not spread bad Karma to others. \u00a0The same concept also includes negative emotions; people generally do not share their negative feelings, such as fear, loneliness, and stress with members of their family. \u00a0\u00a0When asked: \u201cwhy don\u2019t you talk about it?\u201d \u00a0The most common answer is \u00a0\u00a0\u201cWhat is the use of talking? It is only becomes a burden to others.\u201d<\/p>\n The answer could provide a glimpse into the fact that Chinese international students or international students from the developing countries do not have sufficient knowledge of psychotherapy, not to mention knowing how transform negative emotions. \u00a0There are many obstacles for international student to access the counseling services; language barriers probably being the largest obstacle, followed by traditional culture norms, and being unfamiliar with the counseling service system. More psycho- educational workshops are needed in order to help international students acknowledge the concepts of well being, counseling, and psychotherapy.<\/p>\n Only when the students have sufficient knowledge of how to maintain a sense of well being, and are familiar with the counseling services, \u00a0\u00a0will they be to access social and psychological resources that are available to them on campus. Students will then have a better chance of surviving their academic years and enjoying successful integration and adaptation to their new environment and culture.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Hailing Huang, MTS, MA<\/p>\n
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